I started this because a friend of mine told me about his. After reading some of his, I have decided that I am going to use mine hopefully as a sounding board. Noone knows who I am and if they do then they will understand where I am coming from, if they really know me.
Life seems to be like an F4 tornado-all of the time.
Peace, I am starting to believe, is an illusion, something you search and search for but never seem to get there.
I despise drama, life in itself is drama, why would you want to create more for yourself and those around you? I despise people who look down their noses at others, wondering just what it is about them that makes them feel superior? I despise two-faced people. If you don't have it in you to be straight up and speak your mind, get the hell away. You need to join the drama club.
It seems to me, that I am having to face demons from the past and I have little to no patience for anyone. For some reason they just keep popping in and out of my existance, things I thought were over a long time ago have become a struggle again.
They say that strange things happen to you when you are faced with an unexpected death, a near death experience, etc...Taking care of my Mother for the last 6 months of her life through her battle with the demon cancer, seems to have really taken a toll on me. Then three months later having to have a pacemaker/defibulator at the age of forty, seems to really have taken a toll on me too.
I have wondered if I tucked the demons into a special hidding place and pretended to deal with them? Now that my heart is strong and I am better, now is my time to take on the demons?