Change

I have decided since I just had my birthday, I am going to make some serious changes in my life. I am tired of always being bitchy and having a negative out look on life. Things will not get better without an effort on my part. It has taken me three years to make this decision and to decide I can live a normal life even though my Mom is no longer here. Her death took me somewhere I had never been before and I am ready to leave it.
She was the constant in all of our lives, she kept the family together. Since her death, our family is scattered, it is like no one knows where to pick up and how to go on. There is constant drama, either between sisters, kids, whoever. THE DRAMA IS SOON TO BE A THING OF MY PAST.
There is no way any of us could fill her shoes and I would not even attempt to try. The way our family is now I am sure she is broken hearted and she would be so pissed.
I know this will not be easy but I am going to give it my best shot. With the Lord's help, this I will overcome. :-)